{ ultrasound + a low key gender reveal }

we had our ultrasound yesterday.

you know that big deal ultrasound 

when they can tell you if you're having a little boy baby or a girl baby

mostly i sit in awe of the first sight 

of my child formed more like a human being

and less like a deformed peanut

with both jake and this baby i've laid there with the jelly on my belly 

as a stranger pushes a medical tool on it and i think to myself "i don't want this to end"

then i think, "only 20 more weeks to go until i hold this kid in my arms"

but back to what we're here for

a gender reveal of sorts

we asked the tech to write it on a piece of paper and put it in an envelope

i'm not sure why but it wasn't tempting to open it

we left the medical building and drove away like it was any other day

i guess maybe it was because i was such a fan of our plan:

phil would take the envelope 

with him for the day,

open it and find out by himself,

then on his way home at the end of the day he would stop by a kids' clothing store,

buy this little peanut 

a gender specific outfit,

wrap it up,

and have me open it 

at during our date night.

i'm usually not a fan or surprises. but this one i was r e a l l y into.

but when we got to the restaurant. the bag was calling my name. 

he made me wait until we had ordered our dinner.

good thing we had a turtle for a waitress.

... and ....

can you tell we're excited?

perfect family. 

one boy, one girl.

now we're done.

( k i d d i n g . we are so not.)